If we were on a coffee date I

Thanks to Allie, I got introduced to this fun linkup by Heartnatured, which is a perfect way for me to share my thoughts over a cup of virtual coffee, are you ready? That's a first for me!

If we were on a coffee date, I would tell you how much I am relieved to finally have some time off after this semester is officially over for me. That perhaps the cold, that I currently have, found me just in the right time, when I spend days under my blanket, waiting until the sleep falls on me. I hate colds. My sinuses hate colds. They somehow strip me off of every desire that I have in my mind.

I would tell you that in January I have done some work as a Local Exchange Officer of International Association of Dentals Students, which got me very interested in doing some travelling this next summer myself. I am currently looking into my options of exchange to Spain, if the language doesn't get in the way. I would love to live in Madrid or Barcelona for a few weeks. I feel like that would give my life and thinking some perspective. And certainly, this blog and my camera would love it too. This is crucial, as I always try to please those two as much as I want to please myself. Then I'd take another sip off our delicious caffeine treat and continue my stories.

No place for beginners or sensitive hearts

The moment I realized that I started to listen to music that my parents used to listen to in our home was somehow significant. I would now spend my evenings listening to Sade & Simply Red, and it was as if I could feel my body getting old. I would dream of somebody holding me while those songs play in the background. I would beg the world to go back to how I was before I felt love, because feeling it for the first time was the feeling worth waiting for. Sometimes I feel so blessed that I have a future ahead of me. That there will be people who become my friends, there will be feelings, now I know that for sure. We're spinning, spinning madly on. We're made to repeat our mistakes, we're meant to live, bleed, get back on our feet. I see a proof for that in every day that I experience. I'm not sure why today I am in such an emotional mood to write such things. I don't feel the negativity, I only feel hope. 

it's complicated

It's complicated. This is how I would describe my life at this point. I feel so utterly tangled up in things, I no longer know where I am headed. Although from time to time, I can picture myself in that cosy apartment, with the Nutcracker score playing in the background. Light, big interiors that over the years I would have filled with my things and my loving. Smell of baked apple pie. A fluffy cat sleeping on my knees. But once again, I bet if I ever have a cat, it will be mean and it will end up hating me. And I will call it weird names like Mr Jinggles or something connected with food or worse, dentistry, as I originally wanted. The Nutcracker and other of Tchaikovsy's works will always remind me of my childhood years. The happy and clueless times. 

going on a journey

Beginning of the year brings me much thought about life, choices and love. I would always say that I live for the little moments of happiness and true emotions running through my veins and causing shivers down my spine. It is so good not to be blinded by love. I feel like it is such a bliss to be able to look clearly at the people who are now in my life. Have you ever felt proud of the progress you've done? It's like being in a situation and being able to relate to it, knowing how your old self would react. And here I am today, with my grown up self behind my eyes, and I am no longer scared or weak. I am no longer needy and I don't have to settle for anything I am not sure of. And if I am not sure of something, maybe it's not entirely up to me to decide. What lasts lasts, what doesn't doesn't. Even if it lasts only for a minute, I want to hold onto that feeling for as long as it can be. And now the word entirely is stuck in my head, as I guess I have always liked how this one is pronounced. Weird thing. But that wasn't what I meant to talk about in this post... We were supposed to talk about my journey, so let's do it!

97% by Ben Brand

I am such a huge lover of short movies that I really really wanted to share this one with you. I found it awhile ago while browsing the net. It's a short movie about reality of looking for a love interest in today's world. I guess something we could all relate in the meantime of swiping left and right on Tinder, couldn't we? It is not really a Tinder story, yet it covers the topic of searching for that one true match. What would you do if you found out that your 97% match is less than 25 metres away from you? Enjoy! :)

hello, hello 2016!

Hello New Year! I am excited to welcome you at last. // We actually welcomed 2016 three days ago in Gdansk with my high school friends and their pals. I thought I would meet you here for a little talk. Gdansk was exceptionally beautiful on the first day of the new year, though its cold (-10 degrees of Celcius) made us wish for a cup of hot coffee or chocolate. We strolled the streets of the city as friends would. We smiled and laughed, took photos too. There was thirteen of us on the New Year's Eve and seven on the walk the day after (I was the odd single one obviously). In today's post I would like to show you some of the never seen on this blog photos, because I featured them on my Instagram only. If you want to check out my Instagram, please do! :) This post will be full of non-analog photos, which I snap with my iPad when I don't have my camera at the moment or want to upload something fast without having to worry about shooting the whole roll. 

First photo is of my friend AJ with whom I became friends after we sat together in the history class in high school. She has a heart of gold and now also the most helpful man I have ever met as her boyfriend. // Second photo is of the centre of Gdansk's Old Town with the Neptune's Fountain on the left and gorgeous tenament houses on the right. // Third is view of the Motława River.