sooner or later

Relationships with people are fragile. Sometimes all it takes it's a shift of light and you realize nothing will ever be the same. Maybe I should look closer at the way their pupils react, and the faces change to avoid future disappointments. Wish I could hear thoughts, read their expressions like open books. From time to time I feel so extremely frustrated that I have to be around anyone. My fists clench at the thought of things that people hide from each other. Now I am sure that they will eventually come right back at you, vicious, out for blood.

making the move

The move finally took place and it left me happier than I had expected. Finally the things that we worked on for the last month or so were there to occur in real life. I feel so bad for leaving you with no news nor new photographs for so long! :) I have been secretly shooting a new roll of film, stocking myself up for the weeks to come, and organising my new space with items, fresh flowers and positive energy and love and motivation to keep moving forward.

I also started craving for a new camera, not sure whether I will give in or not... I am more than falling for tulips this year. They are still somehow weak, as the cold makes them shrink and it takes few hours in my room for them to open up and show their beauty. I love having fresh flowers on my desk. Desk big enough to stock everything I need. Few things still need to be taken care of, and let me assure you, there will be loads of picture taking in the process. It's the time guys! New making it cosy posts are coming. 

Having to find myself in that new room, I tried to do it by decorating it all myself. One of my favourite new items would be those tree bookends, that hold my books steady and in a beautiful way. They were manufactured in Ukraine by Design Atelier ARTICLE, whom I might be helping with their new online store (so so exciting!). They have dozens of choices when it comes to bookends, but I felt like something delicate like those trees would be the best pick for my new white and blue room. This fox model was the close second choice though.

making it cosy: new cacti

There will be a new series of post on this blog, one that I will include all the things I buy for my new apartment, where I am moving in February.

I caught myself thinking about it the other day, trying to generally make up my mind about this moving thing, because I still not know whether it makes more anxious or more excited. Anxious because it's the first time since I moved to this city that I am changing place, excited since change is sometimes a good thing.

I fell in love with the potential our new apartment has. And immediately after picking a room, I got sunk into the madness of fabric choosing, because an idea started forming in my head about how to make it all look the way I had always dreamed. It is a rented flat, there will be no miracles, yet tries at making myself a cosy place. It is going to happen in the middle of the year, that is an obstacle, because lacking time can get you frustrated before you actually manage to do something. I want to keep it minimalistic, but on the other hand all those fabrics found on etsy just scream at me to buy them and make curtains out of them, or at least some pyjamas for my love. I quickly started browsing the net, looking for inspiration and put together some sort of a board of all the things I could find. Hopefully in future, I will buy them one by one and in the end my room will be everything I want it to be. Basic ideas included: colorful details like curtains and pillows, the rest in white and blue, and lots of succulent love! :)

I started to feel like I wanted to start from scratch, like I could go through my things and get rid of half of them, not feeling a bit of regret. I had too much to carry to another place, and I wanted tabula rasa. Tabula rasa and my own scandi room, with minimalist wooden furniture and a big white desk, a great background for all the photography I could ever desire.

Canon AE-1 Program first try.

Few weeks ago I bought a new camera, which is Canon AE-1 Program. I have been looking everywhere for that camera. I was determined and not meant to back down until I could hold it in my hands. This cam means a new photography era for me. I had been photographing with Praktica MTL 3 for more than a year, and it's been a fantastic experience. Something that made me want to explore analog photography even further. That Canon is surely a step forward for this blog and for myself. It came with a regular Canon 1.8 50mm lens, and it's actually a new thing for me to be shooting such lens since I only relied on my 58mm for a long time. AE-1 Program was a camera that had been recommended to me by lots of people, and I cannot be happier to finally own it! :)